i'm sorry i havent updated here for a long long time.. btw christmas and new year were ok.. not that perfect but overall ok.. =) so i sorta have many resolutions this year.. firstly straight A's for PMR!!!! then high distinction for piano grade8!! and stop thinking of silly things and focus on what i have and can do.. and stop procrastinating.. and stop caring what ppl say.. something that i cant seem to get off me.. lol.. hmm.. for now i think thats all.. will think of some more soon.. =) so i survived the first two weeks of sch in form3 and in morn session.. so far i think im sorta enjoying it apart from all the work.. lol.. but overall hopefully it'll all be great.. =) thats all for now.. xoxo

I wanted to go to mv that day but the traffic is just crazy!! I'll go sometime maybe during the weekend but i know it'll only be worst.. lol.. anyway the cute shoe bit me!! sobz.. lol.. gave me a blister which is so pain.. haha.. forget the dramaticism..
Renee left for Italy already and i think she probably reached already! wonder how is she doing.. sad that i can't see her when i go to sch next year till bout feb.. but anyhow i cant wait to go back to sch and its not cos i'm bored cos i dont think i am as i've been quite busy.. lol.. miss sch and my frens and wonder how is it like in the morn session..no more junior.. lol.. still junior but at least im in the senior session but being a junior. lol im crapping.. conclusion is i cant wait for sch.. lol.. wed would be Allegro's christmas party then Allegro's closed till next year then i'll have to work on my exam programme till the exam and then concentrate on pmr.. busy year agn.. well im always busy which makes me, me.. lol.. Erine's in aust already and soon other ppl would be leaving too.. lol.. well i just wanna spend the christmas with my family!! =) i'll post some pics of the christmas party later together with the videos i guess. but they aren't clear though.. try to get the ones frm the dvd camcorder.. =) xoxo

So the concert is finally over. Everything went pretty well. Started with my piano solo which amazingly went on pretty good. =) then the duet was really good as well. We played it quite fast in fact but everything was under control. lol. amazingly. I think it's the place. The last time i played there everything was really good too. lol. Then came the Kahchaturian quartet thing. It was much better than before but the second violin's music kept on flying. lol. I think Deana has the jinx. lol. The last time in German Embassy our music flew too. lol. But all of us was a lot more confident. Then I had 3 items off till my violin solo. The only thing I wasn't quite happy was the ending of the violin solo. Firstly I came in late and secondly my repeated notes wasn't good till i kicked off at the 3rd or 4th set. and I think Tetyana fluffed a bit in the middle. But despite all the performances that I did I think it was pretty good. Needed lots of stamina to complete everything. And there was still ensemble to worry. Ensemble went well except for the piano concerto which Scott messed up the cadenza and made the ensemble came in not together at all. but we managed to end together though. that's good. I'll post the videos in the next post and the pictures when i get them from the photographer. The videos aren't that clear though since I used my bro's ph. lol.

Went shopping in KLCC today. Supposed to go to meet Erine and Norman but turned out their dad finished meeting so fast and they didn't have time to shop. poor thing. So I went and shop with mum instead. bought a pair of shoes from Isetan. really cute. =) bought one of Medina's present too. Need to go to Mid Valley to get the other one. Might go to 1Utama tomorrow if dad needs to send any clothes there and meet Erine there. =) xoxo

this was written by Renee!! and i absolutely loved it so i thought i'd post it in my blog (with her permission of course) to show the masterpiece! lol.. anyway enjoy!



Once upon a time... there was a skewl on a hill. a VERY BIG HILL mind you. it was in the heart of the city, but that didn't matter because it was right next to a 'BEAUTIFUL" forest reserve. oh, and did i mention that there was a really tall pricky building popping out of the middle of the forest reserve.

this school was well known throughout the country, it was supposed to be a control school.so when students first stepped into the school, the were either in awe, or , as in my case, they were saying - WHY IS THIS SCHOOL SO OLD?! . and then after about a year or so in the school, they realise Convent Ba Nana* isn't all that great after all. they have SUPER strict rules. "what rules?" you ask?Here's a few to entice your senses :

Appetizer
1. Hair clips must be less or exactly 2 inches long
2. A student can use ONLY 4 clips
3. Hair must not touch the collar.
4. Students must NOT use hair gel, cream, etc.
5. Hair accessories must be only black OR white. No mixture or other colours.
6. No EXCESSIVE hair fashion
7.Fringe must not touch the eyebrow. If it's long. CLIP IT UP.

Main Course.1
. Pinafore's must be approx. 3 cm above/below the knee . The pinafore skirt MUST be A-shaped.
2. when wearing a baju kurung. YOU MUST WEAR A SKIN COLOURED OR WHITE camisole.
3. BRAS MUST BE SKIN COLOUR. this is crazy.
4. School shoes must not have lining.
5. Nails must be shorter or exactly 5 mm long.
6. watches must NOT be bigger than the width of the wrist.
7. horror and romance-based story books as well as comic books are NOT allowed
8. Liquid paper , blanco AND MARKER PENS are strictly forbidden
9. EARRINGS MUST BE EITHER SILVER , GOLD, BLACK OR WHITE COLOURED, WITHOUT JEWELS and NOT be MORE THAN1 CM in diameter.
10. only white CANVAS shoes are allowed
11. tying laces around the ankle is FORBIDDEN
12. All Brand Labels on school shoes are to be whitened with shoe polish
13. all school badges and uniforms must not be faded
14. Socks must be CBN schools socks ONLY. the must be folded to ankle height.
15. Eyebrows must NOT be plucked
16. No form of powder, facial foam, perfume and lip gloss is allowed in school.
17. Personal planners and school rule books must be with the student every single day.
18. Combs must not be longer than the length of the palm. Foldable combs must not be longer than 15 cm.
19. Blades and scissors longer than 3 inches are forbidden.
20. Highlighters are not allowed.

Dessert
1. All pictures in wallets etc must be of GIRLS only and the girls must be in school uniform
2. Chains/ strings etc that are attached to wallets must not be hung out of the pocket
3. School bags must not be adorned by soft toys and badges.
4. Posters in files must be no bigger than A4 size. Pictures cannot be pasted onto one a4 paper.
5. Letters / notes to each other are forbidden.
6. Magazines of any kind *except educational crap* are forbidden
7. Playing cards/games of any kind *except educational stuff* are forbidden.
8. Students in the Morning Session are not allowed to get down at gate four and gate two after 6.50 a.m.

*names have been changed to protect the person/institution's identity.

=) enjoyed that?

And the strangest thing is i love studying there! =) i guess you get used to the rules and it becomes natural. but occasionally on some rules obviously i would break 'em too! ;)

so my streamyx is finally ok. finally got it fixed. been really busy with all the concerts coming up anyway. we're playing at the great eastern mall on sat. come and support! =) and then its the annual concert at yayasan seni on sunday. i'll post up some pics! and mayb some video recordings. but that depends on do i have the camera or not whether my ph can do it or not. lol. nothing much to update recently. been really busy. wanna go shopping though! lol.. and i wonder why nobody has been texting me.. hmm. anyway i'll try my best to keep updating everyday but that also depends on whether my bro gives me the comp or not. but i'll try. =) xoxo

haven't been updating for a while. din really have things to update about. lol. and some things i don't wanna blog to remember. =) anyways the junior ensemble performed in great eastern mall today and they did really well. next week the seniors and quartet will perform and on sunday its allegro's open day at the yayasan seni which has a 9foot steinway grand piano!! it'll be so exciting!! hope we'll play like in Larisa's concert. =) i'm gonna play mozart fantasia in D for piano solo, dvorak last mov of sonata in G for violin, mozart piano duet with joan, khachaturian sabre dance with the chamber music girls and ensemble. come to think of it its really a big thing for me and i'll have to set my mind properly to do everyone well. =) wish me luck! =) xoxo

finally played my dvorak in lunchtime yday. there was a huge crowd yday as there were 3 baby class performing. 2 which i helped and 1 t.grace's class. so everybody was standing with cameras all over the place and all the little kids were sitting on the floor. it was a long and nice concert yday. and i played last. everything went on so well. =) only 1 wrong note.. lol.. but besides that i did better than i thought i would and could. =) big improvement and its partly because i just love that last movement so much!! i played it so many times but i still love it! =) and the feeling of playing well is just so wonderful. the last time i felt like that was in Larisa's concert and that's more than a year ago. its just the satisfying feeling you get after all the hard work. everybody liked the movement i played. actually the whole sonata is marvellous but i can't imagine playing everything. lol.. cos only playing the last movement already made me panting so hard. lol.. i will want to try performing the whole sonata someday when i grow up though. its my favourite. maybe for now cos its kinda young as in the character is really my age but i'll perform the whole thing someday anyway. and the greatest thing is.. i made my mum proud of me!! =) and u.john's proud of me too!! =) it made me wanna work harder actually. but i couldn't have done it without the guidance of my great and funny violin teacher!! u.john!! =) i think he'll give me serious stuff now. lol.. i didn't wanna cont learning the mozart cos i dun really like it actually. mayb not now. lol.. i'm not really a mozart person actually. so i chose to learn a beethoven sonata. and i'll perform it too i guess. if i like it and work hard on it. cos now i have a great accompanist!! mdm. tetyana!! yay!! lol.. she did a wonderful job yday. what a great player! =)
today i had a really long day.. first church then went to eat and went to klcc to buy u.alex gift for his shop anni ceremony then went home to change and went for the ceremony cos i needed to help him hold the scissors when the Dato' cut the ribbon after that went for mpo concert and walked around klcc with mum after the concert. spotted a really nice flip flop (clog kind) but its too expensive though. and came back. ate dinner at home cos it was raining heavily and i'm so exhausted now. mpo concert was not bad. i like the piano concerto and the debussy was ok. mum told me to clean my room tomorrow so i guess i'll have to stay at home tomorrow. need to prac anyway. i'll work hard this hols since i have time. =) xoxo

i know that you dislike me for what i said and do. i know you have your own opinions and you have the freedom to say things. same goes to me you know? i wasn't bloody hell boasting. i just told you what i know so you won't step wrongly. that's what i heard from people who knows stuff. i don't just go to you and crap what the hell i think. and most of all if you think i'm jealous let me tell you i am not! and if you think i'm boasting you have the right to say so but to me i am not boasting. maybe you think that when i tell you you're boasting i was just trying to make you feel bad. but thats how i think and thats what i say. maybe nobody else told you that but you never know how people think. i don't know how you think. to me you're just an innocent young girl who wants love from people and wants to be in the crowd just like me. you always start talking to me online and because of that i find you nice and because of that i tell you what i know so i hope you won't make the same mistakes i made in life. but i din know behind that nice innocent girl i know you were somebody else. maybe i don't know you enough but never that i even think that you were to say such things bout me behind my back thinking i won't find out. and its not only me that reads it. the whole world can read it if they want. maybe you don't know but in my own ways i helped you in my own ways i din wan you to make the same mistakes i did in my own way i treated you as my fren. maybe you did the same but let me tell you that telling the whole world even if its through your blog mean things bout me and at the same time talking to me like a nice fren isn't what a fren would do. if that's how you were to behave i don't think you would succeed in life. i know i can't plan the future and i know i might not succeed too but if somebody tells me what's wrong with me i will at least try to change. if you find what i said to you hurting then i'm sorry but that's the way i was born to talk. i've changed myself many times to fit the crowd but this time i don't want to cos i'm just too tired of changing. if you're being myself then i'm gonna be myself too. you can't stop me from saying things cos i have a freedom of speech and if you want to keep saying mean things bout me then go on cos you have a freedom of speech too. but just though you know its not very nice. and i now know that i haven't been nice from the way i talk then i'll try to say the things i wanna say but not so straight-forward. all this while i've just been me and thats me i'm straight-forward whether you like it or not. but now at least i know that i hurt you i'll try to turn and twist when i talk to other people. thanks for letting me know though.

why must things be so terrible?? my goodness!! can't god like pity me a little bit? sigh.. okay.. firstly i'm sick.. yes sick.. with a terrible flu.. i've never had such a bad flu before but i'm supposed to be "ok" cos i don't wan my mum to know and then i'll have to eat all the chinese herbs thing or go see doctor or wtv.. yday it was worse.. i was shivering the whole day in sch with nana's jacket on.. and sneezing every 5seconds or so.. and i can't breathe properly cos my nose is kinda stuck.. but i was thankful i woke up feeling better.. i thought.. great this lame flu is gonna get better and now guess what? i'm not only having a flu but also a bad cough.. my throat is so itchy!! argh! so that's the first..
today we prefects went to kenny rogers for our party.. it was great.. we had fun and hanan was trying to stuff the potato salad into my mouth.. argh!! it smells so horrible how can i even put it in my mouth.. smelling it only makes me wanna throw up already.. but the other food was great and most of all everyone had a great time!! before tht we went and look at stuff and i bought a handphone thing which is soo cute.. (same with darshini) after all the pic time and eating time well.. its time to go back to sch.. and while we were walking back to sch.. we came to a junction which is made with a zebra crossing but there isn't a time for people to cross! how stupid!! its like when the left hand side cars are turning the ones going straight will stop and vice versa (i dunno if it makes sense) so we couldn't cross the road.. then this pak cik which came outta nowhere came in front of us and wanted to help us cross but all the drivers were dead rude.. (typical malaysians) then he walked to the front a little to try and stop the car but the bloody driver honked so loud and long.. my goodness!! innocent girls just wanna cross the bloody road!! so those in front crossed and i was in the middle.. the people in front were running and i was walking really fast.. almost at the end of the "zebra crossing" i tripped over alya's leg cos she was running and her leg like sorta in a way kicked or make me trip anyway.. so yea i tripped in the middle of the road.. thank god no cars ran over me.. then the other prefects at the back quickly came to help me up... (thanks!!) and non of the front people noticed i fell.. ish ish.. so yea.. i got a big cut on my elbow and my right knee.. and a small cut on my hip bone.. how great!!
and thirdly.. i dont know why but i just find my bestfren kinda annoying this few days.. (i'm sorry i just feel that way) cos.. i dont know.. she's kinda over dramatic sometimes and things that she say and do or wtv kinda annoys me.. and i really dislike it.. i know its something that i can't change cos she's just being her.. but i also do feel kinda left out sometimes even if i'm sitting in the gang.. i know i spend lots of time with the prefects.. but it's my last day spending time with them!! no more after this.. i can still spend time with all of you next year.. so maybe while i was away you were closer to the others.. i don't say its wrong.. i would do the same.. but between you two.. one makes me feel i'm so different and i thought i went over that a few months ago but i still feel like i'm just not like you guys.. like i'm made so differently and i feel so weird when i'm different.. i know god made everyone different, unique and special in their own way but i feel that you make me feel like i'm an alien sometimes.. mayb you don't realise but things that you do sometimes makes me feel that way.. and the other one makes me feel used.. (if it makes sense)