celyn-chanel-lynn

2007-01-12T05:50:00.000-08:00

i'm sorry i havent updated here for a long long time.. btw christmas and new year were ok.. not that perfect but overall ok.. =) so i sorta have many resolutions this year.. firstly straight A's for PMR!!!! then high distinction for piano grade8!! and stop thinking of silly things and focus on what i have and can do.. and stop procrastinating.. and stop caring what ppl say.. something that i cant seem to get off me.. lol.. hmm.. for now i think thats all.. will think of some more soon.. =) so i survived the first two weeks of sch in form3 and in morn session.. so far i think im sorta enjoying it apart from all the work.. lol.. but overall hopefully it'll all be great.. =) thats all for now.. xoxo

2006-12-14T05:13:00.000-08:00

I wanted to go to mv that day but the traffic is just crazy!! I'll go sometime maybe during the weekend but i know it'll only be worst.. lol.. anyway the cute shoe bit me!! sobz.. lol.. gave me a blister which is so pain.. haha.. forget the dramaticism..
Renee left for Italy already and i think she probably reached already! wonder how is she doing.. sad that i can't see her when i go to sch next year till bout feb.. but anyhow i cant wait to go back to sch and its not cos i'm bored cos i dont think i am as i've been quite busy.. lol.. miss sch and my frens and wonder how is it like in the morn session..no more junior.. lol.. still junior but at least im in the senior session but being a junior. lol im crapping.. conclusion is i cant wait for sch.. lol.. wed would be Allegro's christmas party then Allegro's closed till next year then i'll have to work on my exam programme till the exam and then concentrate on pmr.. busy year agn.. well im always busy which makes me, me.. lol.. Erine's in aust already and soon other ppl would be leaving too.. lol.. well i just wanna spend the christmas with my family!! =) i'll post some pics of the christmas party later together with the videos i guess. but they aren't clear though.. try to get the ones frm the dvd camcorder.. =) xoxo

2006-12-11T04:12:00.000-08:00

So the concert is finally over. Everything went pretty well. Started with my piano solo which amazingly went on pretty good. =) then the duet was really good as well. We played it quite fast in fact but everything was under control. lol. amazingly. I think it's the place. The last time i played there everything was really good too. lol. Then came the Kahchaturian quartet thing. It was much better than before but the second violin's music kept on flying. lol. I think Deana has the jinx. lol. The last time in German Embassy our music flew too. lol. But all of us was a lot more confident. Then I had 3 items off till my violin solo. The only thing I wasn't quite happy was the ending of the violin solo. Firstly I came in late and secondly my repeated notes wasn't good till i kicked off at the 3rd or 4th set. and I think Tetyana fluffed a bit in the middle. But despite all the performances that I did I think it was pretty good. Needed lots of stamina to complete everything. And there was still ensemble to worry. Ensemble went well except for the piano concerto which Scott messed up the cadenza and made the ensemble came in not together at all. but we managed to end together though. that's good. I'll post the videos in the next post and the pictures when i get them from the photographer. The videos aren't that clear though since I used my bro's ph. lol.

Went shopping in KLCC today. Supposed to go to meet Erine and Norman but turned out their dad finished meeting so fast and they didn't have time to shop. poor thing. So I went and shop with mum instead. bought a pair of shoes from Isetan. really cute. =) bought one of Medina's present too. Need to go to Mid Valley to get the other one. Might go to 1Utama tomorrow if dad needs to send any clothes there and meet Erine there. =) xoxo

2006-12-07T07:01:00.000-08:00

this was written by Renee!! and i absolutely loved it so i thought i'd post it in my blog (with her permission of course) to show the masterpiece! lol.. anyway enjoy!

Once upon a time... there was a skewl on a hill. a VERY BIG HILL mind you. it was in the heart of the city, but that didn't matter because it was right next to a 'BEAUTIFUL" forest reserve. oh, and did i mention that there was a really tall pricky building popping out of the middle of the forest reserve.

this school was well known throughout the country, it was supposed to be a control school.so when students first stepped into the school, the were either in awe, or , as in my case, they were saying - WHY IS THIS SCHOOL SO OLD?! . and then after about a year or so in the school, they realise Convent Ba Nana* isn't all that great after all. they have SUPER strict rules. "what rules?" you ask?Here's a few to entice your senses :

Appetizer
1. Hair clips must be less or exactly 2 inches long
2. A student can use ONLY 4 clips
3. Hair must not touch the collar.
4. Students must NOT use hair gel, cream, etc.
5. Hair accessories must be only black OR white. No mixture or other colours.
6. No EXCESSIVE hair fashion
7.Fringe must not touch the eyebrow. If it's long. CLIP IT UP.

Main Course.1
. Pinafore's must be approx. 3 cm above/below the knee . The pinafore skirt MUST be A-shaped.
2. when wearing a baju kurung. YOU MUST WEAR A SKIN COLOURED OR WHITE camisole.
3. BRAS MUST BE SKIN COLOUR. this is crazy.
4. School shoes must not have lining.
5. Nails must be shorter or exactly 5 mm long.
6. watches must NOT be bigger than the width of the wrist.
7. horror and romance-based story books as well as comic books are NOT allowed
8. Liquid paper , blanco AND MARKER PENS are strictly forbidden
9. EARRINGS MUST BE EITHER SILVER , GOLD, BLACK OR WHITE COLOURED, WITHOUT JEWELS and NOT be MORE THAN1 CM in diameter.
10. only white CANVAS shoes are allowed
11. tying laces around the ankle is FORBIDDEN
12. All Brand Labels on school shoes are to be whitened with shoe polish
13. all school badges and uniforms must not be faded
14. Socks must be CBN schools socks ONLY. the must be folded to ankle height.
15. Eyebrows must NOT be plucked
16. No form of powder, facial foam, perfume and lip gloss is allowed in school.
17. Personal planners and school rule books must be with the student every single day.
18. Combs must not be longer than the length of the palm. Foldable combs must not be longer than 15 cm.
19. Blades and scissors longer than 3 inches are forbidden.
20. Highlighters are not allowed.

Dessert
1. All pictures in wallets etc must be of GIRLS only and the girls must be in school uniform
2. Chains/ strings etc that are attached to wallets must not be hung out of the pocket
3. School bags must not be adorned by soft toys and badges.
4. Posters in files must be no bigger than A4 size. Pictures cannot be pasted onto one a4 paper.
5. Letters / notes to each other are forbidden.
6. Magazines of any kind *except educational crap* are forbidden
7. Playing cards/games of any kind *except educational stuff* are forbidden.
8. Students in the Morning Session are not allowed to get down at gate four and gate two after 6.50 a.m.

*names have been changed to protect the person/institution's identity.

=) enjoyed that?

And the strangest thing is i love studying there! =) i guess you get used to the rules and it becomes natural. but occasionally on some rules obviously i would break 'em too! ;)

2006-12-07T04:16:00.000-08:00

so my streamyx is finally ok. finally got it fixed. been really busy with all the concerts coming up anyway. we're playing at the great eastern mall on sat. come and support! =) and then its the annual concert at yayasan seni on sunday. i'll post up some pics! and mayb some video recordings. but that depends on do i have the camera or not whether my ph can do it or not. lol. nothing much to update recently. been really busy. wanna go shopping though! lol.. and i wonder why nobody has been texting me.. hmm. anyway i'll try my best to keep updating everyday but that also depends on whether my bro gives me the comp or not. but i'll try. =) xoxo

2006-12-02T04:44:00.000-08:00

haven't been updating for a while. din really have things to update about. lol. and some things i don't wanna blog to remember. =) anyways the junior ensemble performed in great eastern mall today and they did really well. next week the seniors and quartet will perform and on sunday its allegro's open day at the yayasan seni which has a 9foot steinway grand piano!! it'll be so exciting!! hope we'll play like in Larisa's concert. =) i'm gonna play mozart fantasia in D for piano solo, dvorak last mov of sonata in G for violin, mozart piano duet with joan, khachaturian sabre dance with the chamber music girls and ensemble. come to think of it its really a big thing for me and i'll have to set my mind properly to do everyone well. =) wish me luck! =) xoxo

2006-11-19T04:53:00.000-08:00

finally played my dvorak in lunchtime yday. there was a huge crowd yday as there were 3 baby class performing. 2 which i helped and 1 t.grace's class. so everybody was standing with cameras all over the place and all the little kids were sitting on the floor. it was a long and nice concert yday. and i played last. everything went on so well. =) only 1 wrong note.. lol.. but besides that i did better than i thought i would and could. =) big improvement and its partly because i just love that last movement so much!! i played it so many times but i still love it! =) and the feeling of playing well is just so wonderful. the last time i felt like that was in Larisa's concert and that's more than a year ago. its just the satisfying feeling you get after all the hard work. everybody liked the movement i played. actually the whole sonata is marvellous but i can't imagine playing everything. lol.. cos only playing the last movement already made me panting so hard. lol.. i will want to try performing the whole sonata someday when i grow up though. its my favourite. maybe for now cos its kinda young as in the character is really my age but i'll perform the whole thing someday anyway. and the greatest thing is.. i made my mum proud of me!! =) and u.john's proud of me too!! =) it made me wanna work harder actually. but i couldn't have done it without the guidance of my great and funny violin teacher!! u.john!! =) i think he'll give me serious stuff now. lol.. i didn't wanna cont learning the mozart cos i dun really like it actually. mayb not now. lol.. i'm not really a mozart person actually. so i chose to learn a beethoven sonata. and i'll perform it too i guess. if i like it and work hard on it. cos now i have a great accompanist!! mdm. tetyana!! yay!! lol.. she did a wonderful job yday. what a great player! =)
today i had a really long day.. first church then went to eat and went to klcc to buy u.alex gift for his shop anni ceremony then went home to change and went for the ceremony cos i needed to help him hold the scissors when the Dato' cut the ribbon after that went for mpo concert and walked around klcc with mum after the concert. spotted a really nice flip flop (clog kind) but its too expensive though. and came back. ate dinner at home cos it was raining heavily and i'm so exhausted now. mpo concert was not bad. i like the piano concerto and the debussy was ok. mum told me to clean my room tomorrow so i guess i'll have to stay at home tomorrow. need to prac anyway. i'll work hard this hols since i have time. =) xoxo

2006-11-14T07:51:00.000-08:00

i know that you dislike me for what i said and do. i know you have your own opinions and you have the freedom to say things. same goes to me you know? i wasn't bloody hell boasting. i just told you what i know so you won't step wrongly. that's what i heard from people who knows stuff. i don't just go to you and crap what the hell i think. and most of all if you think i'm jealous let me tell you i am not! and if you think i'm boasting you have the right to say so but to me i am not boasting. maybe you think that when i tell you you're boasting i was just trying to make you feel bad. but thats how i think and thats what i say. maybe nobody else told you that but you never know how people think. i don't know how you think. to me you're just an innocent young girl who wants love from people and wants to be in the crowd just like me. you always start talking to me online and because of that i find you nice and because of that i tell you what i know so i hope you won't make the same mistakes i made in life. but i din know behind that nice innocent girl i know you were somebody else. maybe i don't know you enough but never that i even think that you were to say such things bout me behind my back thinking i won't find out. and its not only me that reads it. the whole world can read it if they want. maybe you don't know but in my own ways i helped you in my own ways i din wan you to make the same mistakes i did in my own way i treated you as my fren. maybe you did the same but let me tell you that telling the whole world even if its through your blog mean things bout me and at the same time talking to me like a nice fren isn't what a fren would do. if that's how you were to behave i don't think you would succeed in life. i know i can't plan the future and i know i might not succeed too but if somebody tells me what's wrong with me i will at least try to change. if you find what i said to you hurting then i'm sorry but that's the way i was born to talk. i've changed myself many times to fit the crowd but this time i don't want to cos i'm just too tired of changing. if you're being myself then i'm gonna be myself too. you can't stop me from saying things cos i have a freedom of speech and if you want to keep saying mean things bout me then go on cos you have a freedom of speech too. but just though you know its not very nice. and i now know that i haven't been nice from the way i talk then i'll try to say the things i wanna say but not so straight-forward. all this while i've just been me and thats me i'm straight-forward whether you like it or not. but now at least i know that i hurt you i'll try to turn and twist when i talk to other people. thanks for letting me know though.

2006-11-14T06:44:00.000-08:00

why must things be so terrible?? my goodness!! can't god like pity me a little bit? sigh.. okay.. firstly i'm sick.. yes sick.. with a terrible flu.. i've never had such a bad flu before but i'm supposed to be "ok" cos i don't wan my mum to know and then i'll have to eat all the chinese herbs thing or go see doctor or wtv.. yday it was worse.. i was shivering the whole day in sch with nana's jacket on.. and sneezing every 5seconds or so.. and i can't breathe properly cos my nose is kinda stuck.. but i was thankful i woke up feeling better.. i thought.. great this lame flu is gonna get better and now guess what? i'm not only having a flu but also a bad cough.. my throat is so itchy!! argh! so that's the first..
today we prefects went to kenny rogers for our party.. it was great.. we had fun and hanan was trying to stuff the potato salad into my mouth.. argh!! it smells so horrible how can i even put it in my mouth.. smelling it only makes me wanna throw up already.. but the other food was great and most of all everyone had a great time!! before tht we went and look at stuff and i bought a handphone thing which is soo cute.. (same with darshini) after all the pic time and eating time well.. its time to go back to sch.. and while we were walking back to sch.. we came to a junction which is made with a zebra crossing but there isn't a time for people to cross! how stupid!! its like when the left hand side cars are turning the ones going straight will stop and vice versa (i dunno if it makes sense) so we couldn't cross the road.. then this pak cik which came outta nowhere came in front of us and wanted to help us cross but all the drivers were dead rude.. (typical malaysians) then he walked to the front a little to try and stop the car but the bloody driver honked so loud and long.. my goodness!! innocent girls just wanna cross the bloody road!! so those in front crossed and i was in the middle.. the people in front were running and i was walking really fast.. almost at the end of the "zebra crossing" i tripped over alya's leg cos she was running and her leg like sorta in a way kicked or make me trip anyway.. so yea i tripped in the middle of the road.. thank god no cars ran over me.. then the other prefects at the back quickly came to help me up... (thanks!!) and non of the front people noticed i fell.. ish ish.. so yea.. i got a big cut on my elbow and my right knee.. and a small cut on my hip bone.. how great!!
and thirdly.. i dont know why but i just find my bestfren kinda annoying this few days.. (i'm sorry i just feel that way) cos.. i dont know.. she's kinda over dramatic sometimes and things that she say and do or wtv kinda annoys me.. and i really dislike it.. i know its something that i can't change cos she's just being her.. but i also do feel kinda left out sometimes even if i'm sitting in the gang.. i know i spend lots of time with the prefects.. but it's my last day spending time with them!! no more after this.. i can still spend time with all of you next year.. so maybe while i was away you were closer to the others.. i don't say its wrong.. i would do the same.. but between you two.. one makes me feel i'm so different and i thought i went over that a few months ago but i still feel like i'm just not like you guys.. like i'm made so differently and i feel so weird when i'm different.. i know god made everyone different, unique and special in their own way but i feel that you make me feel like i'm an alien sometimes.. mayb you don't realise but things that you do sometimes makes me feel that way.. and the other one makes me feel used.. (if it makes sense)

2006-11-09T06:23:00.000-08:00

the prefect's day yday was a bomb!! ok.. i admit we didn't prepare any stunning performance whatsoever and that was only because we spent all our time preparing for the everybody's day performance.. but we prepared games that needed the students to compete with prefects.. although even if the prefects won we won't get any pressie.. sad huh? lol.. anyways we're givng them a treat.. lol.. if that counts.. so i joined the musical chair only cos sugi made me join cos everyone made her join.. lol.. so yea and i got kicked out the first round.. how embarassing.. (i suck at that game!) and i also joined limbo which i had decided earlier too.. well i didn't suck at that as much but i didn't win too.. lol.. it's all bout fun to me.. and i sure did have fun! =) at the end they're supposed to show us a videoclip but once again they never test the thing and they couldn't play it.. we sat for quite long and then on some music and sang along.. at the end all of us prefects went on stage and we sang and free danced together.. not everyone was taking part though.. but after much persuasion even Michelle sang on the mic for everyone!! cool huh? to me personally i think she changed quite alot in a good way and believe it or not i do not dislike her as much!! i guess everyone has a fun side in them and maybe she was just doing her duty.. but i still dislike all that she said bout me.. well everyone has their own opinion.. mayb thats how she find i am.. sad though.. lol.. the prefects sure aren't who they are when they're on duty.. we danced to shakira.. shaking our ass and all.. lol.. all just to have fun and to show the students what has been going on behind the stage curtain all year long!! =)
the cbn next top role model organised by us did make the crowd scream.. and my goodness there were lots of ahem.. sexy dancers in the school.. i'm not so sure whether the teachers liked what they saw or not.. lol.. but all of it was to made the crowd whoa.. because it's not a dancing comp so of course we didn't pick the gal that can dance most sexily (is that how you spell it? lol)
the winners and prize giving "ceremony" was help today cos the teachers were bugging us of the stage yday.. so yea i helped announce the winners while michelle gave away the prizes after the video was screened.. (i'll come to that later) then i said a few words of thanks and sorries.. lol.. that doesn't make sense to me then once again we're shooed of the stage and the juniors took over everything.. i forgot to wish the juniors good luck though.. lol.. but i guess we've said that for a million times..
so the video was a really sweet thing prepared for all of us by michelle, sarah and athira.. although most of their pics was there but it was really sweet as everyone was in it too..only some less and some more.. we're still part of the team.. the worse part of the video was that the teachers keep stopping us halfway and complaining bout the dirty classes (they had the class party before that) but otherwise the video was great! thanks and great job to michelle, sarah and athira aka bling2!! so i guess that's the end of our one year journey together.. there were ups and downs in the board but when it comes to duty nobody cares bout their personal problems and always work as a team!
besides the prefect thing.. something nice happened today too.. nice to me at least.. lol.. and i'm not telling you! =) xoxo

2006-11-07T07:39:00.000-08:00

german embassy concert is over!! it went well.. i thought the duet was ok.. only mayb a little bit slow but to me i always like to play slower on stage cos or not it'll fall apart.. =) the chamber gals did well too but i think it wasn't strong enough.. i think that would be Alla's comment.. but at least it sounded more clear and together.. ensemble was great apart from the starting of the piano concerto and the eine kliene.. which i admit i came in early.. really sorry bout that.. but i guess it didn't really fall apart.. i was really tired mentally towards the end and both of it are the hardest.. but what is done is done.. after that it went well.. =) i personally love the ave verum!! it was so magical.. maybe it didn't built to the climax so much but it really sounded like angels singing!! esp the beginning!! great job and congratulations to the Allegro Senior String Ensemble!! the other performers did really well too.. esp Scott the soloist for the piano concerto!! he was absolutely fantastic!!
it was really sad u.john couldn't make it tonight.. the thought of it makes everything dark.. sigh.. but guess we can't do anything.. i'll have to pray really hard so that he will get well soon.. and then we'll make another successful concert for the annual concert!! to me i think that would be bigger cos i think i might have to play solo.. working hard on it!! =)
tomorrow's the prefects' day.. i din know it was tomorrow.. i thought it was friday.. but anyways.. we'll just have fun!! i just found out that my class din make it through for debate.. that's ok.. there's always a nxt time!!
now i am so exhausted mentally and tomorrow i'll have piano at 9.30.. better get going and sleep or not i won't be able to wake up tomorrow morning and Tetyana will go after me if i'm late.. =) xoxo

2006-11-05T07:51:00.000-08:00

so we celebrated ewan's bday.. a.esther joan and mark came over for dinner out.. hope ewan's happy..=)
yday mr.sugar horn player frm mpo came to conduct us as a replacement of u.john who won't be able to make it.. a.esther said that u.john will come and watch us though.. he should be able to come out of hospital either tomorrow or tues morn!! yay!! =) but mr. sugar (pronounced as su-gar not su-ger) did a great job!! we sounded so magical!! my goodness esp the ave verum!! and he commented that we all did a great job!! u.john must be so proud of us!! =) we better play that magical and that good on tues!! we're having another rehearsal at the embassy tomorrow with mr.sugar.. and then on tues it'll be the full performance!! i shall pray very very hard that we all do good!! =) great job senior string ensemble of allegro!! let's have the audience in our hands and make them cry!! (in a good way) =) xoxo

2006-11-03T17:06:00.000-08:00

so everybody's day is finally over!! yay!! lol.. next thing coming up would be the german embassy on tues and then our prefect's day on fri next week!! everything went well yday.. well ppl cant hear the piano but that's ok since i dun think it was good anyways.. lol.. the choir well as usual went out of tune a bit but the crowd sang along so i guess they did enjoy it a bit.. the prefect's dance went well except that the seniors put the music wrong and closed the curtain at the wrong time but everything else went ok.. yay to all!! lol..
after school yday i had duet practise and well it wasn't that good to me.. wasn't that happy anyways yday.. nvm that.. playing for lunchtime concert later.. duet and chamber.. hope it'll be good this time.. =).. i dun think u.john will be able to make it for the german embassy though.. so it's all up to Alla!! go Alla!! lol.. cos he's not here so i won't be playing my dvorak later.. will play it on 11/11 if i'm not mistaken..
it's ewan's bday tomorrow!! must get him a pressie later!! =) xoxo

2006-11-02T05:17:00.000-08:00

had my if i'm not mistaken 3rd piano lesson yday.. and it kinda sucked!! got scolded? my god.. and she was practically screaming at me!! sigh.. wish i still had larisa.. miss her alot.. mayb i'm still new to her.. give it a month or so.. but she has a really diff way of teaching and she wants everything up to speed so fast! i hardly know the notes!! geez.. and there was once which i got scolded when i'm not even in wrong! how sad can that be? there were rests and i wasn't playing but she played and she keep scolding me cos i'm late.. when there were two rests there.. well.. hope the next lesson would be better..
u.john admitted to the hospital that day.. sobbiez.. wont have my lesson on sat i guess and cant play for lunchtime recital on sat too.. i wonder why.. why must he be here that i play? why can't i play even if he's not here? strange arrangement.. anyways i pray that he will make it on time for german embassy concert on tues!! or not Alla will conduct.. better rehearse properly on sat.. it'll be tough cos all the while it's been u.john who conducts.. probably hard to get used to it.. but we rehearsed so many times with u.john already if everything falls in place we can play even he doesn't conduct i think.. =) hope for the best!!
went to ikea today.. kinda madeover my room!! haha.. bought a new shelf and a new table to share with ewan.. it'll come tomorrow!
kak ana went back to indonesia already.. sobz.. she wasn't even a maid to us! she was part of us! part of the family.. ewan's been crying all day.. even in ikea.. poor little boy.. everyone feels the lost in the family.. sigh.. miss her lots too!! but we can't do anything.. life has to go on.. and i'm sure she wants to return to her family.. sigh..
just found out that i came out 1st in class by ziwei!! not that happy though.. the markings are diff this time.. and it isn't fair.. anyways can't do anything bout that.. actually if koghi would have sat for the eng paper she would come out 1st in class.. at first i pity her.. but ziwei told me that she wanted to know how many A's we got and she actually beat us even without the eng paper and she wanted to go and confront the teachers just to be able to be in the positioning! my goodness! for heaven's sake.. you missed one paper then you're done! you're not going to be able to be in the positioning! dun be such a b****!! are you so afraid of losing to other people?? face the fact woman!!
tomorrow's everybody's day.. hope the performances turn out well!!

2006-10-31T04:57:00.000-08:00

well so we tried out the thing today.. it was ok la.. no technique or phrasing but acceptable.. they were only trying to get the right notes.. but if they were only that good they shouldn't have boast.. if it was me i would keep quiet and just fit in.. whatever la.. just hope that people will like the performance..
us prefects finally get more together and united.. our dance is almost done!! or mayb i should say done but with little errors and need to brush up a little bit.. besides that everything's going on fine.. the rehearsal was dead bored!! i was number8 and i had to wait till they finish announcing 500 over people!! my goodness.. we were all so restless and everyone was grumbling.. there were people sleeping too.. i will definitely bring my storybook tomorrow!! or not i will seriously die or boredom.. hope everything will go on fine from now on.. next week i'll be stepping down as a junior prefect!! happy that all the job is done but kinda sad that it means that i wont hang out with most of the prefects as much anymore.. but whatever it is.. everything will remain memories.. nice ones too.. hope we'll make the prefects day really fun!! xoxo

2006-10-30T05:07:00.000-08:00

i just find everything absolutely insane! what is wrong with them? we've created a play and we practised hard (if only evybody will cooperate!) and they wan us to change the whole thing?? and they wanna see in by the nxt day? what are we? my goodness! we're just 14year olds.. ok mayb we do own some really smart ppl in the board but even if they're so smart they dun seem to be able to perform! and its not only the teacher's fault.. the prefects themselves wont work together.. there is nth wrong in playing i admit i play and fool around alot too but then when it comes to real work cant they be a little bit more committed? they call themselves prefects but they never practise when everybody does and they're not even busy with other clubs whatsoever.. they're just doing their k.h. project which most of us haven't even started! and that includes me and i suck and sewing.. never take over any of my dad's blood in tht part.. i had the most embarassing performance today.. thank goodness it's only being seen by a few teachers but they have not only made a fool out of themselves but also a fool out of us! those tht worked hard on this! and they don't know what they're supposed to say and just blurt it out on stage and thank goodness us people who are better on stage covered for them!
and that's not enough headache for me! there is always more.. sigh.. the choir isn't even a choir! less than 20 people! why join the club if you don't wan to perform when we need you? i feel like scolding each and everyone of them! and i already told the teachers that its impossible to perform well with this amount of people but nobody listened to me.. i was only talking to the air! if they would listen to me and let me change the item into smthg i could coach better then everything won't be last minute and things could have been perfect now! now when i'm able to change the morning teacher's minds they only give me a day! a day!! one miserable day to learn what we're doing and put them together and perform the next day to them! even professional musicians cant do that perfectly! i just hope that two can sight-read well.. they seem to be showing off all the time and always boast that they're really good i'll have a good see tomorrow.. hope they really are good this time cos i do not wan to embarass myself once again! i just hope we can get the notes right and when we play its together and dynamics effect too.. wont push them to play up to speed.. certainly wont be as good as my skalon sisters but i hope it'll work out.. it'll be really tough for me to work with them though cos i know one of them really dislikes me and i dislikes her too and the other.. we've had a big conflict before.. and not only that they're my juniors.. not wrong that they're younger but i've always not been able to work juniors well.. i'll just pray and hope everything will turn out fine.. hope for a better day tomorrow!
tomorrow will be the rehearsal for everybody's day and i'll be in school since 7.30 till 4pm.. another exhausted day.. then it's everybody's day on friday then next week i'll be stepping down! finally.. no more a junior prefect! there have been ups and downs in the board and things can't work out between us properly in between.. but i guess it's all personal matters though.. besides that when we're doing our duties we always work together.. although some of us only talk to each other when we neeed to but we always get the job done.. well done junior prefects '05-'06!! for the juniors coming up i wish all of you good luck and work hard!! don't let any conflict between any of you take over your duty! duties comes first!! and get committed to the board!!